| Like Fragments of a broken mind, I splinter by my own design. |
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[Sunday
July 29th, 2029] |
comment to be added. ROAR.
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[Wednesday
July 8th, 2009] |
Countdown to 12:34:56 7/8/09
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[Tuesday
May 12th, 2009] |
Note to my friends all over the world: don't invite me in your wedding party.
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[Wednesday
April 8th, 2009] |
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I'm in love.
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[Thursday
February 12th, 2009] |
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My cat just broke a 40$ action figure...
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[Sunday
February 8th, 2009] |
Alayna: GIIII, no more funny faces!!!!!!!!
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[Sunday
January 11th, 2009] |
How did I lose 2 caps to 2 chapsticks last night. ;dlkgj;dfkj;lkjkj
And I'm actually scared to go outside with red pants on and my blue winter coat for the fear that someone will think I'm a Giants fan.
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| Photographers can dance, too! |
[Monday
December 1st, 2008] |
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Yes, still that fucking Jazz station! |
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Ladies and Gentlemen.... I give you,
Louise.
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[Sunday
November 9th, 2008] |
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I was being brave with you. I wish I could throw a pencil into the clockwork of my brain.
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[Monday
November 3rd, 2008] |
Freshly painted silver nails and some Inner City Blues after some Silk City food and ice cream. Tired but happy.
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[Wednesday
October 29th, 2008] |
1.) I need funny links. Like those G.I. Joe PSA's on YouTube, FailBlog type stuff, etc. Help me, kids!
2.) I need more Marvin Gaye in my life.
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[Tuesday
October 14th, 2008] |
As I drove home today from the hospital I feel guilty leaving, I couldn't take my eyes off of the beauty radiating from the sunset. It had to be an expert painter who did those strokes of pink, orange, blue, purple and white. I wanted nothing more than to pull over and sit on my roof and watch it transform into something else beautiful.
At that moment, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I miss being in love. I miss the love of my life who never came back to me.
I want to slow-dance to Al Green's "Let's stay together."
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| AUSA 2008 |
[Monday
October 13th, 2008] |
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Incubus - The Warmth |
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So me, my friends Jack and ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) treerootsex , and my cousin Jason drove down to VA pretty early on Friday. After I got lost a few times and whatnot, we made it there safe and sound. I threw on L'arc, molested animeangel , and then went to McDonalds and ate the entire place. Had an awesome time with amazonmandy doing a Gunbuster 2 shoot <3 Dinner at Ted's Montana Grille was awesome as usual. So glad to hang out with chibi_plum and tehsmex again :) At this point I was in ballgown!Ivy (Valentine) for the formal ball. At the ball, I acted like a jackass, and danced with: some cool guy, heerojf , and Jack! va_ronin looked damn good with his James Bond look! And then I went to bed like an old lady lol. Saturday, I threw on Saya and took a billion pictures with Greg ("Awesome Cloud"), and had a friggin BLAST. Then I put on Rydia and took a million more pics. Thanks to Judypoo (thedreamerworld ) <3 I have some awesome shots! I put on some normal clothes, and stalked Mandy at a photoshoot and then got ready for din din. Me, Mandy, themattyshow , brilliantnova , Chris, Chris #2, Jack, Jason, and a hot chick and her bf all had dinner at Chili's! They forgot my sandwhich, so I molested "Hedgie" and talked about my sex life for a few hours. Oh, and Mandy spanked me in arm-wrestling for the second year in a row! That slut. (Thank you for the drink ^_^ I owe you one!) Glad to finally meet Val! We successfully made Mandy go O_O and -_- and ._. and "OH MY GODDDDDDD" on several occasions. ::high fives all around:: After yelling shit at bad parkers, and leap-frogging, I headed to bed again like an old bag. Sunday, I was tired as shit, said some goodbyes, and headed home. Thanks to my GPS being a dick, we saw a nice view of the pentagon and the airport! Good job. Oh and minuberry , I want to make sweet love to your costumes. ryoko and pixiekitty015 , I only saw you both for like .05 seconds, but holy crap you guys always blow me away with awesome.
(I kinda just wanted to see how many LJ user links I could put in 1 paragraph)
( Crazy pictures as usual! )
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[Wednesday
October 8th, 2008] |
Holy fucking balls, I somehow beat out over 30 people and got the job at University of Penn! I'm so fucking happy and so fucking sad all at the same time!!!!! ryoko , we will get to lunch together!
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[Thursday
September 11th, 2008] |
While Channel 12 (PBS) is on showing an old special on South Philly....
Mom: JOEY "BAG-A-DONUTS", I KNOW HIM!
Me: ::dead from laughter::
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| Otakon 2008 |
[Monday
August 11th, 2008] |
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Friday morning, Maggie, my 2 cousins, and my friend Jack all came over between 9-10am so we could get a good start on driving down to Baltimore. We ate lego-shaped eggos and watched Robot Chicken while poor Laurie was stuck in traffic getting to my house lol :( When Laurie got here, we packed up the cars and headed down. Traffic wasn't horrible. Going home was a different story.
Highlights of my weekend:
- Hanging out with Laurie <3
- Seeing Maggie before she heads off to Japan for 9 months <3
- Taking pics with Greg as "Awesome Haji" from Blood+
- Dancing with Master Chief at the Rave.
- Seeing Elevator-Tetris.
- Jessie's boob.
- Getting away with carrying my giant Saya sword on Friday.
- Meeting up with lots and lots of friends :)
Things that made me want to set things on fire:
- Forgetting my badge for the Rave lol..........
- Missing some cool people :(
- TRAFFIC on the way home grr
- Not having enough time in the dealers room.
- Cheesecake Factory - the wait, attitudes, waitresses, old people, etc.
newfoundgirlie5, number18, and me, representin' crazy.
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| AnimeNEXT 2008 |
[Monday
June 23rd, 2008] |
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This pretty much sums up the weekend.
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[Thursday
June 19th, 2008] |
I worked my regular 9am shift at work as normal. I asked my 5:45 patient to come at 5:15 so that I can get done early to leave for the Pearl Jam concert. I was pretty excited to use the GPS that I just bought a few days ago, and to watch one of my dad's favorite live bands with him. After work, I called Laurie about tomorrow's anime convention. I was feeling good about having a nerdy weekend. I drove to my dad's apartment in Deptford, NJ to pick him up and then head over to the Susquahanna Bank Center. I was excited to show him my new crazy hair, too. So I walk up to his apartment with him, where we stayed for about 30 minutes. He always finds a way to ask me for money, and no matter how horrible that makes my stomach feel, and no matter how much it makes me hate him...I always find a way to let myself give him money. This time, if he didn't pay off the last 100$ of a fine he has to pay, there would be a warrant out for his arrest. (He's been arrested lots of times, so I'm not surprised by this at all) I decided to only give him 60.
We headed out to my car complete with a 2 disc live concert of Pearl Jam's that was recorded from Japan a few years ago. I used my GPS to get us to Camden, and we made it there fine. I parked and we started to walk to the Center. Some security lady told me that I couldn't take my blanket in (to sit on, since we had lawn seats). So I decided to run it back to my car. My dad didn't want me going alone, so of course he came along. He started getting slower and stumbling quite a bit. This brought back horrible memories of living with him as a heroin addict growing up. I of course let him know how I felt. He explained that it was the combination of his muscle relaxers and the interferon drug that he has to take. We finally make it to the grass where we park our asses and wait for the show to start. He starts talking about how he wants me to release him from the child support money he still owes my mom. I freaked out on him. I can't believe he brought this up AGAIN, let alone at a concert where we are supposed to be having loads of fun. As the minutes go by, he starts getting way worse with his balance and his slurred speech. He couldn't even keep his eyes open. He kept leaning forward sitting Indian-style, and his head would almost touch the grass. I tapped him violently in thousands attempts to snap him out of this. When he would lean back, I would use my arm to sit him up, and then my arm would get sore from his weight. I couldn't help but to start crying.
Then Pearl Jam started their set. People started screaming and cheering. I was crying my eyes out. I kept asking my dad if we could leave and at this point he couldn't even make out a sentence and I don't even think his eyes were open at all. I tapped him endlessly to try to wake him up. I yelled and screamed at him that I wanted to leave. After only 4 songs, I was completely fed up. I told him I was going to get help for him to stand up so that we could leave. I don't know how lucky I was that 2 EMTs were sitting behind us the whole time. They were kind enough to help me escort my Dad down the steps to where the entrance was for the Center so we could leave. At this point, my dad kept apologizing to me and telling me that he loved me. I kept telling him to shut up and that we needed to focus on WALKING to my car and not falling. These 2 jerks walked diagonally across from us, and one of them said "Ohhhh shit, that guy is FUCKED up!!! HAHAHA" I of course felt the need to say something back, so the only thing I could think of was "Thanks asshole."
I had his arm around my shoulder and I think I was supporting 80% of his weight as we slowly stumbled along the sidewalk back to my car. I don't know how I had the mental or physical strength to get him back to my car. These 2 cops saw us struggling to walk, so they told me to park him on the corner and they would watch him while I got my car. My dad didn't like this idea because it involved me walking the streets of Camden alone. I told him to shut up and went looking for my car. My dad felt the need to tell the cops in his slurred slow talk, "I have hepatitis C and full blown AIDS for 10 years now....and this is what the medication does to me." So I go on the journey to find my car, and of course there were 2342355 parking lots completely filled and I was searching the wrong one. I thought my chest was going to explode from running around. Finally, I made it to my parking lot and drove to the corner where my lovely dad fell asleep looking half dead. I started to pick him up, and the 2 cops helped me get him to my car. When I shut the door, the one cop told me, "My dad was 1 of 8, and his youngest brother died from AIDS back in the 80's....God bless ya!" I then turned my GPS on and headed back to my dad's apartment for the second time that day.
Of course the GPS told me to drive through the lovely streets of Camden instead of getting back on the highway. I made it to my dad's about 10-15 minutes later. I pulled up, turned the car off, and opened the passenger door, which startled him and woke him up. He insisted on me letting him walk by himself, but there was no way I could since he was still stumbling. I got about 50 feet before I realized that his keys were in my car so I parked him on a nearby bench. Of course when I am on my way back to help him get to his room, he is STANDING up swerving around like a drunk. I started to get chest pains because the only thing I could imagine that moment was him falling to the ground and going SPLAT. So I grabbed him by the arm and screamed at him yet again. We made it up to the 4th floor where he resides and the first thing he did was turn on his stereo. He apologized AGAIN, and seemed pretty sad that I wasn't staying. When his door shut behind me, my hand went straight to my chest because of the sharp pain. I couldn't even cry. I think these are some emotions that went through me at that moment: frustration, rage, depression, CRAZY. I got in my car and drove home. The last thing on my mind was the fact I spent 150$ and only saw 4 songs.
I think it's safe to say that tonight was one of the worst nights of my life.
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